all I want is a little peace

I vividly remember sitting there, telling him, "all I want is a little peace." I just need a little peace.

I want to stop feeling so nauseous. I want this anxious feeling to stop. I need to be able to sleep more. I can't go on being this way. Feeling this on edge.

I remember craving change. Not knowing what that looked like. And being terrified to fail. Again.

That feeling like the world is wide open and you have no where to go in the same breath.

I remember that place so well. The place where you feel you don't fit in. Where you don't feel like you're adding any value. You're exhausted and worn out by your own inner musings, your inner critic. It's the place where you're needing and avoiding change at the same time.

And thankfully, my body was telling me what I needed. I just needed a little peace. That's what we all need.

Because when we can quiet the inner chatter, when we can quiet the fear, we'll find that the other answers we need come to the surface.

If we can remind ourselves to find the peace inside ourselves, I know the rest will follow. The other change will come. We'll feel and know what we need to do next, but we can't do that when we're stuck in turmoil.

Because when we're in that state of angst, in that state of agony, self-torture, we can't make any lasting change. I've learned the hard way, the first stage is to quiet and find peace within.

We just need is to find the peace inside ourselves.